- Charlie and I do not speak. In fact if I get the opportunity to see that little prick again, EVER, I'll probably kill him. He stole David's guitar and my camera. He ruined my life by getting me into a whole hell of a lot of health problems. There is so much to that story I couldn't even begin to start telling that story but it's LONG over and I'm LONG over him and it. THANK GOD.
- I didn't move in with Hayley. She ended up moving in with her ex "Drunkass" who is another story I wish I had told, Ace and Gauges but they got kicked out recently and Drunkass after having his face beat in by me (That is a story I will HAVE to tell in a bit) went to jail for a bit. Gauges is moving from dorm to dorm on campus right now and Ace is living with some girl for the time being. Hayley is living in my back room until she can get back on her feet. I live with Asshole Brother, Alan and Jamie. We have a husky right now but not sure we are going to be able to keep him. I love my house!
- David and Jackie have been on again off again but are steady now and I'm SO happy they are together. She truly is good for him. On another note Michael and Kayla are on the off week of getting along and it's annoying. I love them both but I hate them together.
So let's move on to just now life. Andrew had made a reappearance in my life. I am sitting back watching him break my heart for a third time. I'm not even sure why I'm letting it happen. We went to Whiskey Dix last friday and he was way too nice from the beginning but around 11 when Tori left he bought me a Jack and Coke and sat down to talk to me. He apologized for everything... He told me I never deserved how he treated me before. We talked things out. It was nice. Then someone came up and told me that it wasn't very lady like to drop the f-bomb. I replied... "That's cause I'm not very lady like." To which Andrew responded... "And that's why she'll be my wife someday." Somehow we get into a fetish talk, master/slave things and move into boyfriend/girlfriend things. I'm still assuming he's just messing with me so I'm kinda blowing him off when he says, "If you want to try sometime... Let me know when you are sober." From that point on I was just waiting for him to break my heart... for the third time. He spend the night that night. We didn't have sex but I did give him head. We cuddled and he stayed till around 10am. He woke me up and we smoked before he left. When I woke up later I text him and this was basically the convo....
"Well, I'm sober now..."
"And..."
"Were you just drunk talking last night?"
"Nope."
"Look I'm not ready to go through this a third time. Please don't do this if you are just playing games."
"I'm not playing games with you."
And yet it's been 4 days and I've seen him since then and we've barely spoken and I've gotten just a hug goodbye. Am I being a girl? Or I am just prolonging this inevitable? I'm not sure but God knows I'll just keep waiting because I wont give up until I have to. I'm not sure what this guy has on me but it's driving me crazy!
And now to go drink my problems away... Wanna hear a secret? I'm an alcoholic. No really. I'm an honest to God, full blown, alcoholic. My friends are watching me spiral and I don't even think they have a clue how bad it's getting... Hmmm.
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